Today I still am not completely well, I have the sniffles and have been feeling a little light headed at college. It hasn't been all bad though, my friend Rachel is now friends again with our friend Viki; who was a truly bad friend to Rachel and left her feeling confused, uncared for and upset. I am happy they are friends again, as it means I will be seeing more of Viki and our other friends, however I'm worried that Viki may do this again and completely break down Rachel once more. I have mentioned Viki on here before.
Seeing photos of Alex drives me crazy, so many reminders of the happy times we shared. He is honestly my first love, and as I am still in love with him, I feel like I will never get out of this feeling. I don't believe that if I still feel even a little bit towards Alex as I do now, I will never be able to love someone else. It makes me afraid that for the rest of my life, I may have to pretend my feelings are over, and that one day I did get over him. Do you ever get over your first love? Do you ever find another love? These are some of the questions I cannot answer yet, but one day I hope to know.
No one really knows what will happen in the next few minutes; in one you could be feeling like a bird high above the ground, to the next being so deep underground that it seems there's no way out. Grasp every chance you get to be happy, and don't ever take it for granted.
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