18thJanuary2012

I hate how I hardly ever look at anyone and think 'I could have a relationship with them', I always over think and end up judging people before I've even started talking to them. I guess this is because I slightly feel like I don't want relationships any more, instead would rather just wait until I find the right one. There is so much heart aches in relationships, and personally I get too attached way too easily. There's one guy who I have only just really noticed, he is small built and has natural blonde shaggy hair, however he has a slight tint of black at the front in his fringe. I guess I do have a type, even if very particular. I know barely anything about him, other that he goes to my college and studies public services. It's horrible to think that's all I will ever know about him, but that's just something I'm going to deal with my hole life with many different people. Sometimes I do wish that I had a wider range of boys that interested me, but at least this way is causing me less trouble than what it would be if I liked many guys. My mind is always on at least one guy, I'm just happy he is giving me a break from thinking about Alex.