16thJanuary2012

Last night I laid in my bed continuously rolling over and continuously thinking about everything that is going on in my life at the moment, mainly Chris and Alex. I was thinking how both of them may not want to speak to me ever again after this month, cutting off our friendship. I am so so scared of being forgotten about, I think this would be more likely to happen for Alex rather than Chris. There's even a chance that one of them has found a girl, more likely Alex again. I wouldn't be too bothered if Chris got a girlfriend, I would probably quite like it as long as I knew it wouldn't destroy our friendship and she would treat him properly. Alex however, I would be so distraught if he found a girl. Especially after he has only just told me in the last month that he doesn't see himself wanting to be like how we were with any other girl, only eyes for me. Something like that could really play on a girls heart, but I've heard things like that from him enough to know that he only thinks that himself, but really she will come along eventually. I really miss my baby, I miss calling him 'My Little Wittle Alexx Wallex'. I can tell tonight will be another long one, even though I am very knackered. Believe in yourself, there will become a day when no-one else will.