Right now I would like nothing more than to be dead.
Everything is so wrong in my life lately. The main three people in my life
really don’t care about me like I once thought they did and always would do. I’m
not okay with any of them; Chris has his interests in someone now and seems to
be too head-locked in everything else to care about me, Lean has always put me
to the back of her mind and even goes behind my back and Alex, the one person I
have ever loved in that way does not feel the same and quite possibly will
never want to speak to me again once I tell him the truth. Not only that, but my
hopes of going to Uni are slowly slipping away, rejection after rejection.
Every job that I apply for either ignores me, rejects me or bullshits me on. My
future career life looks pretty terrible right now, and I wonder if I will ever
be able to do anything decent in it. My dad is forever putting me down, not
thinking about my feelings and completely treating me terribly. I feel like I
have no one here for me, I am so alone. I can’t see this life getting any
better at all right now, I just wish Alex knew.
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