14thFebruary2012

Today is valentines, and I will be spending tonight in bed with someone who I do not love. I don't want anything to happen, but I do not trust myself, and I do not trust him. I may have to drink simply to accept the fact that I am going to be in his bed, just the two of us, in that lonely house. He won't realise how much I don't want anything to happen, but I am too scared to tell him that, for if I do, I may lose him forever. I feel so sick just thinking about the antics of tonight, but I am not strong enough to do anything other. Tonight won't go down in history [8]