30thMay2012

Today has been one of the better days, I've been kept busy thus not thinking about the Alex situation for too long. I woke at 10 today, in not one of the best moods to say the least! The reason for that is simply because of him, and it gets me so angry thinking about it, I'm very much in hope that once I've [hopefully] talked to him about it on Friday that I will be a lot less stressed over it, however I'll always be extremely disappointed in him. The problem is that now I know he's hiding it from me, I can't help but feel he's getting high every time he goes out somewhere. It makes me feel so sick inside, and this is why I don't know if I'll be able to cope with being friends with him for much longer.

We haven't talked very much today, only a little in the morning before he went out to go see friends and a few short texts about nothing much. I'm fine with this, but will call him tomorrow night to talk about plans for Friday. I'll be a little surprised if we don't talk to each other properly tonight, but then I guess I can only blame myself for not starting up a conversation in the first place.

I feel it's worth mentioning that my friend Maybury was here for me, once again. He always likes to make sure I'm alright, and help me out if not. I think he's the person I've appreciated the most in these past 4 years, as he's always stuck around, we haven't grown apart and he's always so understanding. Although we haven't met, he truly does care about me, as do I about him!

I cleaned out my 2 hamster cages, a chinchilla cage, fish tank and cleaned my room floor today, that took me a few hours and kept me occupied. I'm appreciating my animals a lot more today, they're all lovely really and I LOVE being able see all their personalities. Animals don't get enough appreciation </3