5thMay2012

Today would have been another anniversary of Alex's and mine, 2 years and 8 months actually. It's amazing to think that he's been in my life for somewhere around 3 years now, he's definitely been the one to make me happy again and enjoy the years. I've made a silly mistake again, by sending him drunken texts last night, we haven't talked since even though he may have said that he'll talk to me in the morning. I quite enjoyed last night at Weeden's, however I think I enjoyed the first two better, simply because they weren't so busy and it meant I was spending more time with people individually. I had Lean take me home last night, when she was leaving at 11 as I thought it was for the best, Peacock stayed over mine too as it would be easier for us all. I would have much rather Alex talking to me today than not, especially as I want to visit him tomorrow at work as it's only him working with one other person called Adam, who I use to talk to in secondary school and know reasonably well. I want to go to the pet shop in the garden centre he works in to look at the hamsters, so it would be very nice to see him too and possibly spend a decent amount of time with him. Things with us were quite loved up lately, but it kinda feels that whatever I said last night has scared him off a little and he's been avoiding Facebook. Well I guess I better stay hopeful that he texts and now go to sleep, not too sure what to do, so whenever in doubt I decide to sleep <3