1stJune2012

Today's the day, I can't see it going well at all however drink is here to hopefully help that! I'm feeling nervous now, however hopefully I'll get into a happy mood while I'm getting ready to see him. I'm pretty certian he's going to be here around 9 rather than 8, which is what he planned. It's now 7.30 and I've only just got in the shower, so I do hope that he'll be late and I can drink much more. I love him, but don't feel I'll be able to ever forgive him for this. After 1 year and 3 months broken up, someone should most definitely be over the other, however we've pretty much carried on our relationship so how the fuck am I meant to get over that?! When I first found out about him doing ecstasy I felt like I wouldn't ever want to date him again, but lets not lie now there will most probably always be a space in my heart for him <3