I'm tired and I've just been watching a film with a feature of love within it, sadly resulting in me thinking.. I would love to fall in love with someone who loves me equally, in a girlfriend / boyfriend kind of way opposed to the friendship or family kind of love. It's difficult at the moment though, as I am already in love with someone. Unfortunately for me, they do not feel the same way. I'd like to think that they once loved me, but my mind now says that they never quite did, or it just wasn't that strong to make them want to fight to make the relationship work. There's so many things I regret from my past relationship, but I still try to look at all aspects positively.
I can't say if it's him who I'm in love with, or whether it's the concept of love that I'm in love with. I'm so desperate for that feeling of closeness with somebody, knowing that you'll always be accepted by them no matter what you do.
My main reason for not being in another relationship is down to my feelings towards this guy, which leaves me to think up other pathetic reasons as to why relationships wouldn't work out between me and other people. I have had chances to be with people who genuinely like me, and would treat me very right, but they aren't him.
I don't like to focus this all around the positive side of love, but the positive memory is blocking out the negative right now.
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