24thJanuary2013

I had a phone call with the ex last night. It was a short one of 20 minutes long. I loved talking to him, but I hated how casual it was. I want to talk to him in a way that shows him how much I truly care about him, but that's not what he wants any more. My excuse for phoning him was to tell him that I had booked tickets for us to go to a concert, one that we had already planned and discussed. Of course I could have easily sent him a message notifying him this, and it was a bit of a pathetic reason. I didn't give myself enough time to think of a reason for phoning him, it happened before I realised, and then it was to late to stop phoning him. In the end he did miss the call, but phoned back a while later. I had an expectation of him to invite a fair amount of people to the concert we would be going to, but when asked he replied that there's no one else (meaning it would be just the two of us). He knows full well that I won't let us not stay together that night once back from London, but I guess we can worry about that later. I reckon that he will be close on that night, in a way that's there to be comforting rather than to pose anything.