14thNovember2012

It has been decided for a very long time now that I should be on a diet, I am unhappy with my weight but never try enough to actually see much of a difference. I want something that will cut down my weight and keep it there. I may go on different diets in 2013, a different diet for ever month, see how well suited to me they are and how well they work. My main problem though is sticking to my ideas, I'd love to be able to, but there's far too much temptation in this world and I have a lack of will power and determination. There's only been one noticeable change of weight through a change of diet, and that was not eating for a week which brought me down half a stone. I am a rocky 10 at the moment, something which I am not proud of or happy about. From the BMI chart it shows me that I am at correct, but high end. The minimum weight for my height should be around 8 stone, which is what I'm dying to get to. I want to stick this through, I want to be happy with my weight and how my body looks! I have been far too self concious for far too long. I've never been at an ideal weight since a young age, it was probably around year 5/6 where I wasn't in control of my weight. I wouldn't say anything really set me off to becoming a larger size, just that food tastes ridiculously good.
I am a vegetarian, which would make people want to believe that I'm at a healthy weight, the only problem is that I don't like many vegetables and instead feed myself off chips, crisps, bread, chocolate and anything unhealthy in large amounts that you can think of. Going vegan would help my weight, but the problem is that once I find multiple things that I can eat, I will just keep going for them.
My exercise effort levels are very low too, and especially as I don't have a dog now. There's been so many times where I've felt like I want to go on a walk to get out of the house in the past few weeks, but I just don't feel comfortable if Webster's not with me, it's just not the same. I'm pretty certain we will get another dog eventually, but I am clueless to how long mother would like to wait, as I don't think she would be emotionally okay with it for a few months. I feel embarrassed if I join up to a gym by myself, I'm ridiculously clueless how to work anything and I can imagine I'd be helpless with them too. I like swimming, but sadly I'm not okay with this at the moment as I'm body concious. I use to have swimming lessons at a young age, so I'm a strong swimmer. I haven't been swimming for a good few years now, possibly the last time was in 2008 summer, when I went on holiday to Spain. I need to start walking more too, as that's enjoyable, just I feel a little awkward if there's no reason for it other than I need some exercise. If I don't sort it out in this following year, I'm probably going to be screwed for the rest of my life.