13thNovember2012

A song that I'm really into at the moment has the lyrics 'what's so good about picking up the pieces', which really gets me thinking. The rest of the song doesn't so much relate to this, unless I'm completely getting it wrong. When would it ever be best to leave it at something wrong?! I don't understand people who allow their relationships to fail. I hate them, I hate them, I hate them. I suppose there could be a good reason, but still it does not satisfy me. It's a good song if you like moderately heavy rock / screamo though (Caraphernelia- Pierce The Veil).
I know many people may think it's a little sad researching into bedroom tips, but personally I feel much better after I have done so and I encourage anyone else to do so, there is a lot of useful information out there. I have been tonight, and it really does fascinate me, so I will continue to talk about it now. One thing I have never enjoyed doing is having the guy go down on me, it makes me feel extremely uncomfortable and I just want it to stop. Luckily for me this doesn't happen so often. From what I can remember, I used to be the same while having his fingers touching me, but this has changed and I'm more than welcoming towards him now. For me though, I'd much rather pleasure him than the other way round, I feel far too uncomfortable in these situations and I feel at ease if it's him in pleasure. It pleasures me knowing that I am pleasuring him. I would love to hear other people's opinion on all of this, so please go ahead. Another problem is that I have sadly never orgasmed through sex with my current sexual partner (or my one night stand), I think this is due to lack of experimentation, (his) lack of time, and not enough self determination. It's gotten way past the point where I feel uncomfortable talking about it with him, so instead we just don't. One time I felt so pressured over it that I started to cry while he was trying to pleasuring me, it was rather awkward to say the least. He is understanding of it though, and he does have my best intentions. I think I need to get him to focus on me, or tell him to do so as I don't feel he would through foreplay followed by sex on his own call . We will work on this.