Last night actually went unexpectedly well, I didn't cry once, I didn't have many of my down moments, and even then Alex managed to comfort me and bring me right up again. The night was very passionate, which is something I've really needed / wanted for a while, and passionate from his side as well, not just the usual passion from me. Alex cares for me, he makes sure I'm okay, and he's an amazing friend. Sometimes he has difficulties though, when he isn't aware of what to do and when I've been backing off. I do love him.
Since the passing of Webster, I had not eaten. I'm not feeling hungry, instead just a little empty and definitely light headed. My uncle's over for the night, we're going to be getting Jimmy's pizza, and I can imagine I'll either scoff loads of it down, or barely eat. I'm not wanting to eat still, but I have been feeling ridiculously light headed today and feel like I probably should before I fall over and hurt myself. I feel me not eating is a good opportunity for me to go vegan though, something that I've been wanting to do for a while and I'm willing to try again.
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