31stAugust2012

After the big argument with my parents last night I decided it would be best to stay away from them for a while, but I had nothing better to do other than drink with them as they had turned my internet off. The internet is one thing that seriously gets me down and affects me, I honestly go crazy if it gets turned off. I really have no clue what to do with myself so instead I turn hopelessly to drink. I got on well with my dad in the afternoon / evening, but again not so much my mother as she was complaining that I'd broken a washing basket and my bedroom door a little bit more. That was out of order, however I think anger management lessons or something or equal standard rather than winding me up would have worked out much better. I eventually got my internet back late in the evening, however didn't run for it straight away as I was enjoying my dads company; we were talking about animal things. I went to join my mum in the front room and watch telly with her, however she soon left simply because she was tired and not because she was still angry with me. I laid down on the sofa and fell asleep quickly with Webster, it was safe to say I was pretty knackered! One thought that night was telling Alex how I felt through a phone call, but very thankfully I chose to sleep rather than give him a drunken phone call. I think I may have to tell him in the next few days how I feel though, and probably on the phone too as it's unlikely that I'll be seeing him any time soon. I never have the confidence to tell him any more, it's always the same outcome of us two being more than friends but no dating.