21stAugust2012

Well I finally got to sleep at 5 in the morning, to be woken and said goodbye to at 10 and then eventually properly wake up by myself at 2 in the afternoon. It was a very glorious sleep I must admit and I'm very proud with myself for being able to get back to sleep. I told Lean I'd assist her in getting STI tested so had to be ready for 3, which allowed me to do basically nothing to prepare for town. Lean has had sex with 12 people now at the age of 18, I do find this rather disgusting I must say. I have no doubt that there isn't any chance that the two people I had sex with have anything unhealthy as I believe them very much so that they were both virgins, one I'm certain of. I guess it would have been better for me to get tested too, but that would have involved a blood test so I can imagine I'll never get one done, instead just stick to my safe ways. I think the reason I'm so refined when it comes to getting off with people is because of Lean, seeing her do it several times it's made me see how truly revolting it is and how much I don't want to be like that. I don't see the need in doing anything sexual in the slightest with someone if you're not together, I know I'm a hypocrite for saying that but really it doesn't make sense. I guess I still allow Alex and me to do things together as I have seriously strong feelings for him and I'm a sucker for his adorable face that I love so much. In town we went to various shops, walked around a little and got NN too which was delicious of course. After this we both had to go home and get ready for going into town drinking in Yates, which is fairly the busiest place in town but the dance floor is far too small. I stayed on the phone to Alex throughout the whole of my bath, which is pretty impressive I think. I would have loved to stay on the phone with him forever meaning he wouldn't be able to go to Reading, but he wasn't up for that sadly. I managed to not spend too much in the evening and not get wasted either, not even drunk but still enjoyed myself with all the music playing, even if it was a lot black music. I hate what alcohol does to people, but I feel safe with it.