19thJuly2012

I don't have high expectations for the worlds future, people take everything far too freely and judge everyone just from what they can physically see. How animals get treated has upset me once again, which was my fault for slightly checking out a website which promotes animal welfare and equality. I seriously think speciesism, a made up word for discrimination to species. I honestly see it on the same level of sexism, racism or whatever else ism, it's just sad that I'm one of very few which share this opinion, however I do think it's quite rightful to look down on all humans as a species, as they are quite disgusting.
Although this topic has got me a little down tonight, I am still grateful for getting to spend my last night and morning with Alex, which was very nice as we always tend to be as close as we use to be when we were together when he stays over for the night. I simply love being with and around him, any connection which I can get with him I will take, but sadly he doesn't seem to want to spend all his time with me. I do wish that Alex felt the same way towards me as I do to him, but there's nothing I can do about that really as it's all personal preference. What I really dislike though is that even though we can have an amazing time with each other, he still doesn't seem too interested in seeing me for a good while after but does with other friends. I don't particularly think he sees me as a friend, and I have no clue as to how he does see me. I think I should probably talk to him about this, as it's one thing that I've wondered for a very long time. I seem to simply accept what I can get from him, but really this isn't right and I don't wish this upon anyone.
It's late at night and I'm in a deep thinking mood, I'm happy I didn't get a decent sleep last night because it means I'm sleepy now and hopefully will be able to get to sleep easier.
I would just like to mention that you should always read the label! Careless me didn't when using Savalon, so instead of adding 30ml to 1/2 a litre of warm water I used it straight and it's burned up my face leaving it to be blistered around my lip piercing. It does look very sore, and very gross to say the least, but I guess there's nothing I can do other than use something suitable to help clear it up.