30thMarch2012

I fell asleep last night, leaving my laptop to play music until 5am and then finally get turned off at 1pm after I had been on it for two hours right after I had woken up. I gave my head a little rest while waiting for Alex to reply, which didn't happen in the night until he had woken up and been at school for a while to get a reply at 8am. I'm not too bothered really, am just a little paranoid as I left my lighter very visible on the side for the night, I'm worried that my mum may have came in my room in the morning and seen it on the side. She would have came in for her laptop mouse, which she does most mornings however this morning did not, hopefully she did not see it but instead she may have done and decided to leave her mouse in my room and pretended she didn't see it or my laptop left on for the night. I woke at 11am, and then finally went in the shower at 1pm, as I was waiting for a suitable time to have a cigarette right before my shower. After my shower I got ready for going into town with my mum. We finally got into town around 4pm, about an hour was spent in New Look as mum was looking for a dress to wear to a party she will be going to tomorrow night, then to Holland & Barretts which I have only just noticed has a very large amount of vegetarian and vegan foods. After that I went to Noodle Nation to buy my 173, just plain noodles, udon type for take away and then to eat at my nans which we went to straight after. While at my nans I sat on the floor and looked through the photo albums, which I tend to always do. We then went home and later on got a visit from Luke, someone who I have grown up with since the age of 7, he is a very good friend of the family and only lives down the end of the road. He turned up asking if dad was in, and he was completely out of his face from alcohol. It was an amusing 30 minutes as he continuously fell on the floor and was making terrible drunken conversations with slurry words. We finally managed to get him out the house and made him make his way back home. I took some photos and videos and soon after got a knock at the door from a friend called Sean. Sean was inviting me out to go to the green to see some friends, his brother was there too which I have never met before as he had been kicked out the house a good few years ago, quite possibly for mistreating an animal. It was very uneventful at the green, and we left around an hour later because of this. On our way home we stopped at Luke's house, as I'm friends of the family. My little friend Laura, Luke's sister was passed out in her bed because she had drank too much, I will most definitely need to have words with her about her drinking. After that I went home and since then I have been up in my room, listening to music and chilling on my laptop online. It hasn't been a bad at all, just wish it was a little warmer and I had a little more social interaction while online, especially from the guy who I like as he still hasn't replied to my inbox. He has been out tonight I think though, as there was pictures of him out which were put on Facebook late tonight.
One song which never fails to get me thinking and a little upset is Missing You - 1st Lady. I can't imagine myself ever getting over Alex, and if he died any time soon, I would most definitely try to kill myself. Right now, my life wouldn't too good without Alex and I don't feel like I would be able to survive without him. I love Alex <3