For the past couple of days I have been feeling really panicky for Friday, which is when I will be at a VE event seeing Modestep. It's a gig so there will be lots of people there, around 800 people I would say can fit into the venue. I am really nervous because right now I have no one who I can go inside with and no one I know who will be right by my side for the whole entire time. There will probably be many people there I dislike, even more people there I don't know and very few that I know and will be comforted in the slightest from being around them. Now thinking about it, it was quite a silly idea for me to go to this as I will be feeling extremely uncomfortable, however I am planning to drink my way through the whole night. I just wish I was more stable with managing to keep in my limit of being happy and enjoying it with a care to being smashed out of my face. I'm sure Friday will be fine though, get drunk enough to forget about it :)
Today I went for a driving test, I practiced 'turn in the road' for the first time today, it was much easier than I thought it would be and seems very easy to pick up! I enjoyed my driving lesson and will be having my next on on Wednesday. My driving instructor and my dad actually know each other which I learned today, they both use to work night shifts at Tesco which was over 10 years ago! After I got home from my hour drive, I sat outside with my Uncle, dad and Webster. It was the sunniest it has been this year and I very much enjoyed it. The sun and the summer seems to make everyone happy, most people tend to get out of their houses more and just appreciate life better than before. It's pretty sad how just a little bit of sun can make things seem so much better, but I am one of those people. I had been left a note from mum to hoover some of the house, and in return she would help me clean my fish tank. My fish tank hadn't been cleaned in around a month as I was scared of killing the baby fish, however it got cleaned tonight and everything went really well. It looks unbelievably clean now and I very much enjoy looking at all the fish in the tank.
Overall today has put me in a much more cheerful mood than the past few days, however I wouldn't say I'm happy. Things with all three of my friends who I am most closest to are still not completely okay, there will have to be some big changes made. I'll leave this on a final happy note; I love the sun <3
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