Last night really was terrible, I had an enjoyable day and evening but not the night. As I had been drinking my reactions were slow and off, when I tried to catch my chinchilla Rou I accidentally stood on him instead, he was seriously struggling and I thought I may have broken his neck or made him have a seizure. It didn't hit me very much at first as I had to stay calm because I was on skype, but I took him to my mum and said about going to the vets the following day is he's still not better and then I brought him back into my room and cried my eyes out while holding him close to me. He was unable to sit, lay straight up or walk properly without falling to the side. I realised after a while that it was his front right arm that I had hurt badly and comforted him, I really did think he was going to die. I phoned Alex as he's always good at calming me down and his voice soothes me major amounts. I wouldn't tell him at first why I was so upset, and it seemed as he was a little resentful for it rather than supportive; most likely because he knew I had been drinking and I tend to get emotional. I am so appreciative to Alex for last nights phone call, he was there when I needed him and it truly meant so much.
Today I've had overtime, it was horrible as I was on tills. I really don't like tills, I would much rather be somewhere where I can be by myself, talk to people if I want and do my own thing while working. I can only imagine I'll be on the tills again tomorrow, but I do hope not. I'll probably ask if I can not be on tills if I'm put on there. It's been an extremely long day and all I want to do now is curl up in a ball in my bed with my teddies, it would be rather lovely if Alex could join me too but there's sadly no chance of that.
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