7thDecemeber2012

My head is seriously fucked right now, as I have been drinking and have been around people who like me as more than a friend. I've had a work party tonight, that has gone surprisingly well considering how badly I thought it may turn out like. The first couple of hours were a little un-lively, until the alcohol kicked in for everyone, where we were all dancing around the balcony and having a good time. I've got drunk enough tonight to be honest with people, where as when I'm sober I will be a lot less open! Today I found out from person that at least one person from work likes me, his name is Pete. I don't know how much Pete rank, but he didn't seek that drink to me, leaving me to think that he was being genuine with his feelings. He took me away from others to have a private chat with me, where he said that he does like me, but because of our age difference (he's over 20), and his situation with his ex (whom he has a child with and is living with) it would be rather awkward and difficult between his ex and him. He's aware that another person from work likes me, and said to me something along the lines of "he's told me that he likes you, you know he's in there waiting for you, so it's your choice". If I was sober, everything would have been extremely awkward between all of us, but thankfully I wasn't. The other guy who likes me, Max, is someone who I personal find to be attractive to general types of people. He has a model type of body and face, but not something I would personally find attractive if he did not start off the feelings. He hasn't told me how he feels towards me personally, however it has come across that way a little. Pete telling me earlier that Max does in fact like me, by Max even coming out to talk to Pete about it amazes me, as first of all I just assumed that just wanted some action and I'm someone half appealing to me, but if he's talking to other people about it, then possibly he is being serious. However until he came to me personally about it, I wouldn't take him up on it. Max is physically appealing to me, as well as his personality, although he may be a bit forward without expressing how he truly feels towards me about me. Damn I hope my head gets clear tomorrow!