21stDecember2012

I'm accepting that the ex (Alex) doesn't love me any more at the moment, I say at the moment because my hopefulness brings back that feeling. I am far too hopeful for my own good. He has moved on a lot from when we were together, and a lot since after the break up. I hate how I can never seem to get my head around us not being together, and the fact that we will never get back together. I wish for nothing more than that, but that's far too much to ask Alex, as he feels like his life would be controlled by me. If I could control him that easily, I most definitely would have forced him into asking me into a relationship by now! Things are strange, and I don't understand why I'm being so accepting at the moment.