After the short relaxation period yesterday, I am once again feeling very stressed over the amount of work I have to do and the short amount of time I have to do it in. There's no easy solution, I'm in a situation where I need sleep, work, and have a social life, but sadly I'm only able to pick two. At the moment my levels are very low on all three, and it's not healthy for me at all. I've had a little more guidance on my husbandry coursework, with my lecturer telling me that I would have of course failed if I had submitted my coursework as it is now. I'm happy that I've had help with it, however I wish I wasn't such a failure with ALL of my coursework in the first place. I now understand my production coursework a little more now, although I know full well that I am going to struggle majorly with it as it's simply a topic that I am clueless about and will have to research into the basics. I've even had another piece of coursework back, which hasn't been failed! Simply on the basis that it was that bad that it couldn't even be accepted as coursework. The given back coursework was an academic poster for Anatomy and Physiology, but it wasn't in format as the college facilities didn't allow me to do so as they closed early without notice. This means though that I'm able to completely start fresh on my poster, and have a better advantage over everyone else in the class. The coursework wasn't even looked at, meaning that I can add in whatever I want, especially seems as I've had the work back and they can't even check that I haven't added anything more in. I'm happy about this, but not happy that I only have until Friday to complete it all when I've got work experience from eight in the morning until five in the afternoon every day this week. I'm not even too sure how I will be handing in the work, as I'm working in all the available time that I have to hand it in. This means that I only have around six hours each night to complete the work, which I suppose is twenty-four hours, but it takes me a long time to get into concentration mode. I am also going to be very knackered after long days at work experience, so this has not been planned well at all.
My plans for Sunday evening were to meet up with the ex, to get approval of the new piercing from him and to be satisfied with seeing him after a long while of not speaking as much. I'm pretty gutted that I won't be seeing him this weekend, as it will mean that I'm in damper spirits for this week. First of all it took him a couple of days to give me a reply, making me feel as if he was reluctant to meet up with me. He then said he would see me then, and then even asked about details for it, and then he suggested other days as Sunday evening wasn't very convenient for him. The two days he offered were Monday and Tuesday, for him to realise he can't do Monday, and just leave Tuesday. I'm not free at all this week as I've got work experience, which sucks greatly as I'm rather desperate to see him. At first my message was slightly giving off the impression that I simply couldn't be bothered with him, but I soon made it clear to him that I do want to see him, and that I'm not just leaving it like that because I can't be bothered. It aggravates me slightly that he probably can do Sunday evening, but it is his choice I suppose, and he knows full well what I am like with always leaving late. His last text was a little blunt, simply because it was something that I wouldn't be able to reply to, as if he's happy to have the conversation over even though I tried to make effort with us. I really must stop reading into things too much, I'm getting far too into all of this. He truly does brighten up my life.
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