16th August 2013

I just need someone to understand, understand all of the pressure that is currently put on me. I don't believe that is possible, but I need someone, I need help. My laughter is no longer true, my smiles are no longer strong. I'm pretending to be happy, and there's noway out. My situation is far too much for me, I cannot handle it now. I feel stuck in limbo, not getting better, and not getting worse. Suicide plays on my mind every day, but I cannot go through with it, I've promised too many people that I wouldn't try again, but it feels like the only option out of here.