15thMay2013

The moment when you realise you've started thinking about suicide on a regular basis again is not a nice one. I don't know whether it's because I'm genuinely down at the moment, or whether it's because I've been unwell with a cold and have been very knackered as of late. I think it is a good thing that I'm aware of my regular thoughts now, and that I am coming on here to express my thoughts and feelings, but of course it would be even better if those thoughts and feelings weren't there. I should currently be really happy as it's my birthday tomorrow, but all happy thoughts have now left my body for the day. I'm in hope that I will be joyful tomorrow, and I'm sure I will be.