I haven't done many blog posts since discovering my depression. I started therapy around the start of the year and now I have finished! I'm in no way over my depression, however I have achieved an incredible amount and my therapist did absolute wonders. The main trigger for my depressions that my ex boyfriend and I had something going on with each other, however many times I was rejected from him and this made me greatly upset and often a bit crazy. Honestly for a long time I wanted him and nothing else, and currently am still very similar to that. I've always had thoughts of saying goodbye after the break up (3 years ago), however I could never be able to get myself to actually go though with it, but finally I reached the courage. My therapist suggested that I give him two options, to either make what we have into a relationship, or say goodbye. I've always been hopeful for him to change his mind and want to date me again, but in recent weeks this has gotten less intense. He said goodbye to me, which I was expecting, however it was still greatly distressing. I feel afraid to like anyone else.